-Reluctant-

Back. Yesterday was one of a hell not my day. Was really dragging my ass to get to work. It was so tiring la. Wasn't being my ownself, was day dreaming alot (lol) I was just not being me. Hah. I was less noisy and yeah. I hate it when it turn this way. Urgh, even Dalli could see me being unusual yesterday. I wrote the wrong things at the receipt thingy, which caused miscalculation at the end of the day, what could be worst, tell me. Pfft. & Della came over while me and dalli were having our 'short' break, but she wasn't happy about it, she told me that she isn't lah. Ahh, lantak. Tak kan kejap je tkleh, muke kite muker ape, robotcop eh. Aiyo. We shall work our ass off then. :/

& of course when im not in the good mood, something is wrong lah. Not really wrong, but still wrong enough to make me feel really grumpy. Hmph.

You see, when things are all turning haywire all the time, then it will only be back, great once you're moving on the fast pace of life. I hate that to happen. Cause it definitely caused alot of crap. Im just reluctant to let it go, away just like that. I can't bring myself to do so. I know, im selfish. But i just can't lah. I shall leave it to fate, cause you know what, i can't think the right way even. Even my heart is not giving me the answer. Stupid, sume tak working then how kan. Chao narbeh. GRRR. Benci uhhh.

I don't wanna make the wrong move at all, so shall i just stay stationary. Which i totally can't cause as and when, im sure i have to let go. "Life sux!" Lol dah macam those budak2 primary school draw2 at the void deck and all, hahahahhahaa. Okay no~ Muahahaahaa. I need entertainment also la hey! Mister!!!! You're important to me, i just want you to know that. You were by me all along, you know that okay. Ive told you so, i dont know if you are willing to believe, but hell ya you are as important cause you've been by me. Urggggh, rawr. Wahh i sound like what sia with all these venting of anger.

And the part of rihanna and neyo song, hate that i love you really refers alot, heh. You should listen if you hv yet to.

But i hate it
You know exactly what to do
So that i cant stay mad at you
for too long, thats wrong

But i hate it
You know exactly how to touch
So that i dun wana fuss and fight no more
Said i despise that i adore you

And i hate how much i love you boy
icant stand how much i need you
And i hate how much i love you boy
but i just cant let you go
And i hate that i love you so

You completely know the power that you have
The only one that makes me laugh.


Wahh, sungguh meaningful and so kene. Huahuahua. Haiyaiyai.

Today was alright. School was as per normal, mundane.

Tomorrow acf ca. Urgh, i better get going love, goodnight!