Waking up, drenched in tears cause i dream of that boy, although i know things will never be the same at all. And mind you, i didnt cry on purpose, it just role out when i woke up due to the text i got ftom bro. Crap. Having tremendous of fear of losing the brother made me feel a slap on the face, especially when he text me "do take care of yrself, mama and ayah. i love you all very much" I bet and know he's in shit, im speechless when that text came at 753am.How worst and saddening can my day start with. I feel so heavy and burden by all these :(