Clinging.
When you thought that you could, you actually could not. The past keeps coming back, from time to time. It just come and it can't be forgotten. I wonder why. He text her asking about all of us, you see. Any news from him, just makes me, speechless. I can't, i just can't to hear anything about him, every single thing. Heh. He misses us girls, he claims. I just can't take it.
From the outside, people may think its easy, well think again. Its easy for you to say, but at the end of the truth, there will always be secrets beneath it. 100% facts? That can never be find out, like totally. You think you know, but you actually don't. When you've sacrificed way too much, everything that you could, till you can't, think again, is that gonna be easy for you? Hurh. What i went through, it wasnt only a way to wrench others, but was an emotional and definitely physically one. I know for a fact people learnt from their mistakes.
Heh, I read isma's blog, ive guessed right. Her friends know about my past, heh. I dont really care what others wanna say about me, for a fact, i know it was my mistake and ive learnt out of it. For a fact that no one's perfect. For it wasnt entirely my fault. It takes two hands to clap, well i don't blame her, cause he's that angel who's been by her. But as i think so too, its impossible for us to be friends, when she have grudges. Its impossible for us to talk, when she kept reminding herself of the past as and when she sees me. Right? Right. Its impossible too, especially that this thing has been lingering in my mind. I wouldnt wanna keep things, but yeah. I have never move on. I never did, for you could all ask my girlfriends, they know it best. How can i, how could i. I just cant, i really cant. I tried, to have others after him. I did have replacement, but again it failed, because i simply cant. Yes, im being honest.
I know, its my fault. But what can i do. Im a human, mind you. But like i said, i dont wana get involve, even if really it takes alot, i will try my best not to. Cause the past has to go, it wouldnt stay on. Sigh.
If only, we did not met, if only shits hadn't happened. If only my real situation is really to be known. Gahh. Its just not easy. Ive been clinging to every single memories that eventually would never fade, cause its not i dont want to, but its still clinging to me, physically. How can i, when the first feeling, is still here, with me every single day. I hate to think about this, but believe me, its always been there.
You might not even know what im trying to say, you might never wanna know or better still should not know. For what ive went through is different. Not what you can imagine. Im still trying to move, i am. 5 months since i last meet him, and the 5 months, if possible i wanna make that more, cause i dont wanna meet someone who has hurt me through out the journey we had. Hurt me, but i love him? Heh, women cana be so dumb, dont you think so? You might think i was happy, indeed i was. But ..... Its all unexplainable. Feelings are meant to be feel, and not said. Babe, i dont blame you. You can blame me, i wont bother much. Cause no matter what you say, that feeling will still cling on me.
From the outside, people may think its easy, well think again. Its easy for you to say, but at the end of the truth, there will always be secrets beneath it. 100% facts? That can never be find out, like totally. You think you know, but you actually don't. When you've sacrificed way too much, everything that you could, till you can't, think again, is that gonna be easy for you? Hurh. What i went through, it wasnt only a way to wrench others, but was an emotional and definitely physically one. I know for a fact people learnt from their mistakes.
Heh, I read isma's blog, ive guessed right. Her friends know about my past, heh. I dont really care what others wanna say about me, for a fact, i know it was my mistake and ive learnt out of it. For a fact that no one's perfect. For it wasnt entirely my fault. It takes two hands to clap, well i don't blame her, cause he's that angel who's been by her. But as i think so too, its impossible for us to be friends, when she have grudges. Its impossible for us to talk, when she kept reminding herself of the past as and when she sees me. Right? Right. Its impossible too, especially that this thing has been lingering in my mind. I wouldnt wanna keep things, but yeah. I have never move on. I never did, for you could all ask my girlfriends, they know it best. How can i, how could i. I just cant, i really cant. I tried, to have others after him. I did have replacement, but again it failed, because i simply cant. Yes, im being honest.
I know, its my fault. But what can i do. Im a human, mind you. But like i said, i dont wana get involve, even if really it takes alot, i will try my best not to. Cause the past has to go, it wouldnt stay on. Sigh.
If only, we did not met, if only shits hadn't happened. If only my real situation is really to be known. Gahh. Its just not easy. Ive been clinging to every single memories that eventually would never fade, cause its not i dont want to, but its still clinging to me, physically. How can i, when the first feeling, is still here, with me every single day. I hate to think about this, but believe me, its always been there.
You might not even know what im trying to say, you might never wanna know or better still should not know. For what ive went through is different. Not what you can imagine. Im still trying to move, i am. 5 months since i last meet him, and the 5 months, if possible i wanna make that more, cause i dont wanna meet someone who has hurt me through out the journey we had. Hurt me, but i love him? Heh, women cana be so dumb, dont you think so? You might think i was happy, indeed i was. But ..... Its all unexplainable. Feelings are meant to be feel, and not said. Babe, i dont blame you. You can blame me, i wont bother much. Cause no matter what you say, that feeling will still cling on me.