Just blame yourself, cause you blew it!
Im pretty lazy to update pictures from the outing with Liza and Hidayah. Hahaha. Well, you can actually view at hidayah's blog cause seriously, im sucha bummer la! Haha.
Have yet updated since thurs i think. Heh, work+school=Timeless. Hahahaa. Oh on Friday, which was yesterday, i went home with the guys, kecoh2. Haha, laughing at the slightest thing ever, made me walk into OP shop and out like that, haha. I felt stupid. Uhm, oh i met that secondary school sweetheart anyway yesterday, oh yes, Suffian. Heh. He shrank and he insist he did not. Hah, weird. Cause its been months eversince like the result day. Hah.
So yeah we chat alot, he confessed some stuffs, well i didnt know how to react, well you see LOVE is sucha strong word, and I can't just say it, suddenly. Cause it felt wrong if i were to say LOVE again to someone, i feel that im not ready or not even close to falling in again, its still a long way lah. I just look at his face and i know he wants me to say what i said, once before. I can't. Heh. Sometimes, chances come and go, and this is what happens when some people just don't grab those.
Like i said, i thought i was in love with Didi, but i wasn't even close to love, i thought im gonna fall rightly, but i ended up getting the mending fragile heart into pieces again. Hah, its weird to think about every single thing that is happening currently. Cause when you thought you would be right, you're wrong. Heh.
So yeah, i was thinking about that all along when Suffian was talking about LOVE, to me. And i decided that, i can't say that just because he did, cause i don't think i mean a word that would actually come out yesterday, silent would be better rather than giving stupid faith to others, but none the less, he's in demand and i dont want to be with guys who's on demand, its freaking irritating you see. Cause you might never know where you actually stand despite he says, you're the top. -.-"
Okay and so after we had the long chat, we went off. Headed home with Adli, he accompied me as he was still early. So after then i headed to city hall and met imah,khairie and later on Afra. Oh, it was at least fun meeting them, but tiring though. So yeah thats why we decided to leave early.
Oh and today, went for lunch with momma before work.
Me: Wahh, hot seh laki tuh
Momma: Sempat jer kau nie!
Hahaha, how to have boyfriend like that when i keep on saying that every time i go out. Lol. I miss hanging out with Momma like goin shopping or staying home and chatting with her. Work's conquering my life, totally. Haha.
Oh yeah then work was as per normal. Great cause the sales was good, i think. Heh heh heh. Other than that, its boring. Hhaha.
Fai did ask me for supper, i turned down cause i dont think mom would like me to be home later than 12. Hahaha.
Anyways, i don't understand the need of having my life to revolve only on a particular person. Some people are weird, i came to realise that just now. I dislike it when people wanna make my life revolving only them, its getting on my nerve like gahh. I mean, i have my life, my freedom. And i just dont want people to think differently about what i feel for them, cause yeah i think i somehow gave wrong signal. Crap. But please lah, im not letting my life revolve on a particular person, cause yeah, its mine to be lead. Gahh!
Oh did i tell you that some guys are really irresponsible for their actions. Like wen they say they needed time to think who to choose to be their perfect girlfriend cause they have few others around their waist and then suddenly they dissapear like magic. Wahh, i find it amusing. Why cant you freaking tell me straight cause at least it will smack on my face just once rather than making me think on whether i should move on with life. You're pissing me off.
And on top of it all, you're not professional you know that. Now listen, personal stuffs should not be mixed with whatever you're doing. And i don't feel and see the need to talk to you anymore cause i can't be bothered to even make the move of talking. Hello, i worth something mind you. Like duh, i deserve more than what you're treating me okay, so yeah, be nicer to me mister and don't come crawling to me after you've realise that you made a wrong decision for yourself.
And to add on, there's this particular thingy at the newpaper about women are a waste of time. Yes we do spend our time shopping and asking guys opinion about this dress, that top, this pants and so on. Well at least spend your time with your love one asking about your clothing is a past time to create rather than guys who waste women's time on how they are having some thousand women around them. Pfft, well im saying this for those who are doing this so. Not 10 out of 10 are like that, well at least 7/10 are that way.
So yeah i dont think its fair when you guys say we are wasting your time cause by the end of it, at least we girls spend of time or rather waste our time with you guys or men around us you see. Sometimes guys words are contradicting themselves, especially that article, like hello if we wont beautify ourselves you call us ugly, if we wanna be nicer and doll up you call us vain, so what do you think? You wanna have a girlfriend who looks like a what? Heh.
Think about it before even assuming that women are a waste of time cause you certain guys are even wasting of time, money, effort and our LOVE especially. Dont criticise without looking around, well at least dont think you're perfect to say that.
And im sick, i just throw up. Gahh.
Have yet updated since thurs i think. Heh, work+school=Timeless. Hahahaa. Oh on Friday, which was yesterday, i went home with the guys, kecoh2. Haha, laughing at the slightest thing ever, made me walk into OP shop and out like that, haha. I felt stupid. Uhm, oh i met that secondary school sweetheart anyway yesterday, oh yes, Suffian. Heh. He shrank and he insist he did not. Hah, weird. Cause its been months eversince like the result day. Hah.
So yeah we chat alot, he confessed some stuffs, well i didnt know how to react, well you see LOVE is sucha strong word, and I can't just say it, suddenly. Cause it felt wrong if i were to say LOVE again to someone, i feel that im not ready or not even close to falling in again, its still a long way lah. I just look at his face and i know he wants me to say what i said, once before. I can't. Heh. Sometimes, chances come and go, and this is what happens when some people just don't grab those.
Like i said, i thought i was in love with Didi, but i wasn't even close to love, i thought im gonna fall rightly, but i ended up getting the mending fragile heart into pieces again. Hah, its weird to think about every single thing that is happening currently. Cause when you thought you would be right, you're wrong. Heh.
So yeah, i was thinking about that all along when Suffian was talking about LOVE, to me. And i decided that, i can't say that just because he did, cause i don't think i mean a word that would actually come out yesterday, silent would be better rather than giving stupid faith to others, but none the less, he's in demand and i dont want to be with guys who's on demand, its freaking irritating you see. Cause you might never know where you actually stand despite he says, you're the top. -.-"
Okay and so after we had the long chat, we went off. Headed home with Adli, he accompied me as he was still early. So after then i headed to city hall and met imah,khairie and later on Afra. Oh, it was at least fun meeting them, but tiring though. So yeah thats why we decided to leave early.
Oh and today, went for lunch with momma before work.
Me: Wahh, hot seh laki tuh
Momma: Sempat jer kau nie!
Hahaha, how to have boyfriend like that when i keep on saying that every time i go out. Lol. I miss hanging out with Momma like goin shopping or staying home and chatting with her. Work's conquering my life, totally. Haha.
Oh yeah then work was as per normal. Great cause the sales was good, i think. Heh heh heh. Other than that, its boring. Hhaha.
Fai did ask me for supper, i turned down cause i dont think mom would like me to be home later than 12. Hahaha.
Anyways, i don't understand the need of having my life to revolve only on a particular person. Some people are weird, i came to realise that just now. I dislike it when people wanna make my life revolving only them, its getting on my nerve like gahh. I mean, i have my life, my freedom. And i just dont want people to think differently about what i feel for them, cause yeah i think i somehow gave wrong signal. Crap. But please lah, im not letting my life revolve on a particular person, cause yeah, its mine to be lead. Gahh!
Oh did i tell you that some guys are really irresponsible for their actions. Like wen they say they needed time to think who to choose to be their perfect girlfriend cause they have few others around their waist and then suddenly they dissapear like magic. Wahh, i find it amusing. Why cant you freaking tell me straight cause at least it will smack on my face just once rather than making me think on whether i should move on with life. You're pissing me off.
And on top of it all, you're not professional you know that. Now listen, personal stuffs should not be mixed with whatever you're doing. And i don't feel and see the need to talk to you anymore cause i can't be bothered to even make the move of talking. Hello, i worth something mind you. Like duh, i deserve more than what you're treating me okay, so yeah, be nicer to me mister and don't come crawling to me after you've realise that you made a wrong decision for yourself.
And to add on, there's this particular thingy at the newpaper about women are a waste of time. Yes we do spend our time shopping and asking guys opinion about this dress, that top, this pants and so on. Well at least spend your time with your love one asking about your clothing is a past time to create rather than guys who waste women's time on how they are having some thousand women around them. Pfft, well im saying this for those who are doing this so. Not 10 out of 10 are like that, well at least 7/10 are that way.
So yeah i dont think its fair when you guys say we are wasting your time cause by the end of it, at least we girls spend of time or rather waste our time with you guys or men around us you see. Sometimes guys words are contradicting themselves, especially that article, like hello if we wont beautify ourselves you call us ugly, if we wanna be nicer and doll up you call us vain, so what do you think? You wanna have a girlfriend who looks like a what? Heh.
Think about it before even assuming that women are a waste of time cause you certain guys are even wasting of time, money, effort and our LOVE especially. Dont criticise without looking around, well at least dont think you're perfect to say that.
And im sick, i just throw up. Gahh.