Its a fling fling day -.-"
Gosh, im too lazy to even do up the darn layout. Me and my itchy fingers. Now i screw all of the things. And yes, i have so much to blog.
PS: And in this entry there shall be alot of him im gonna talk about, well if you dont know who, then dont bother.
So i had a talk with him. He told me what was going on, how he felt, the loses he have made and such. I couldnt say anything. I just told him the right thing to do and the rest is all up to him. I just hope that he wouldnt repeat what he did to others cause, ive been through that kinda situation and it hurt so bad to know that you dont mean that much when you thought you mean so much to a person. And i saw his, ex another gf just now when i was about to get into the train. All so connected!
So yeah, met the gfs earlier on. It was fun and all those jokes were making my day. Afra treated us dinner at cahaya. I was pretty much okay, bump into Yitno and yeah teringat the past. Haha, funny. I was happily laughing with Imah when I look towards the left and saw his face popping out. Gosh! Ima saw my reaction! It was so, gahhh. My face turn shocked and just kept quiet plus smiling weakly as he smiled at me. Imah was just cooling me down by tapping my thighs and shoulder. After months of not bumping into him, rather meeting him. I missed him, a little?i think. He was with his family, as usual he's a family boy and he has never change (and this is a good thing, i mean!) I was really weak, imah saw my reaction and she knew i wanted to burst out, but i didnt wana spoil the gfs day. Its seriously a horrible feeling that i can never wanna feel.
You just imagine. I was holding onto him, a day, months months ago, hugging him, talking to him, laughing and joking around, teasing each other, sitting nxt to him and had a great time with him and when shits happened that i didnt meet him and when i bump into him we both just smile weakly. Its really saddening to see that, we seem to be like a complete stranger while the fact is we so know each other pretty well. I feel crapy when i could not get a chance to talk, to joke, to be like last time when i bump into him today. Its totally sucha down feeling.
The gfs were all with their bfs, i feel totally like shit. No not that they were clingy (THANK GOD I HV SUCHA WONDERFUL GFS!) they were the ones who entertain me. Thanks afra and imah! (:Goodness i almost died! The day was sucha a killer.
After feeling shitty we headed to marina sq where i bump into Nizam(ite bishan/BL) and then after which Wan Faris with his friend and fazilah. Then again i bump into wan at marina sq and we kinda talk, i was okay asking him this and that and he told me abt his performance at double O and suddenly he ask me why i wasnt with Him. Heh. I said, urr, cause he isnt around. Thats all. Heh, that question kinda suck.
And then, sat with the gfs and their bfs when this particular guy was asking fr my contact. Heh. Afra was trying to ask her bf's friend to get to know me. I was like laughing as if i was happy but for a fact i dont even know why i am laughing. Hurh.
Overall, what im trying to say is, i cant seem to move on to any new ones. BECAUSE I JUST CANT. Dont ask, cause i find it sucha chore to get to know a complete stranger once again and then get happy with their existance and then having to lose them suddenly. Its like a complete waste of time when i have to get myself comfortable with a new kinda person with weird character compare to the past boys that ive met. Urgh. And its kinda hard cause ive been rejecting a few when god is trying to help me to move on but i insist on staying. Gahhhh! I hate myself for that. And ive to feel guilty when i got to say No.!
Afra and me have a new hobby of taking cab whenever we're at bukit batok to go home. Lol.
And she has this hobby of being friendly to the driver, that i dont mind laa.
But she was so hilarious just now that i almost laughed alone! lol.
Afra: (Talking about guys name starting with A)
Me: Dah la aku nak matair yg namer start with X
Afra: HAHAHAHAA, XIA XUE! HAHAHAA
Me: Takla Xhariff okay per..
US: HAHAHA.
Afra: Aku nak uh ade namer anak start with X, cool per!
Me: Okay uh. lol.
Afra: XXX!
Me: X Ray, Xtra!
US: HAHAHAAHA!
okay lame! Lol.
Then she said
Afra: Uncle, later you just go the round about then i can drop there.
Me: Afra kau imagine eh kalau uncle nie buat kiter pusing 10 kali kat round about nie!
US: AHAHAHAHAHHAHAHHA!
We were so high in laughing. Kekek!
Okay tmr means home and study okayy!
K bye! I wanna sleeep!
PS: And in this entry there shall be alot of him im gonna talk about, well if you dont know who, then dont bother.
So i had a talk with him. He told me what was going on, how he felt, the loses he have made and such. I couldnt say anything. I just told him the right thing to do and the rest is all up to him. I just hope that he wouldnt repeat what he did to others cause, ive been through that kinda situation and it hurt so bad to know that you dont mean that much when you thought you mean so much to a person. And i saw his, ex another gf just now when i was about to get into the train. All so connected!
So yeah, met the gfs earlier on. It was fun and all those jokes were making my day. Afra treated us dinner at cahaya. I was pretty much okay, bump into Yitno and yeah teringat the past. Haha, funny. I was happily laughing with Imah when I look towards the left and saw his face popping out. Gosh! Ima saw my reaction! It was so, gahhh. My face turn shocked and just kept quiet plus smiling weakly as he smiled at me. Imah was just cooling me down by tapping my thighs and shoulder. After months of not bumping into him, rather meeting him. I missed him, a little?i think. He was with his family, as usual he's a family boy and he has never change (and this is a good thing, i mean!) I was really weak, imah saw my reaction and she knew i wanted to burst out, but i didnt wana spoil the gfs day. Its seriously a horrible feeling that i can never wanna feel.
You just imagine. I was holding onto him, a day, months months ago, hugging him, talking to him, laughing and joking around, teasing each other, sitting nxt to him and had a great time with him and when shits happened that i didnt meet him and when i bump into him we both just smile weakly. Its really saddening to see that, we seem to be like a complete stranger while the fact is we so know each other pretty well. I feel crapy when i could not get a chance to talk, to joke, to be like last time when i bump into him today. Its totally sucha down feeling.
The gfs were all with their bfs, i feel totally like shit. No not that they were clingy (THANK GOD I HV SUCHA WONDERFUL GFS!) they were the ones who entertain me. Thanks afra and imah! (:Goodness i almost died! The day was sucha a killer.
After feeling shitty we headed to marina sq where i bump into Nizam(ite bishan/BL) and then after which Wan Faris with his friend and fazilah. Then again i bump into wan at marina sq and we kinda talk, i was okay asking him this and that and he told me abt his performance at double O and suddenly he ask me why i wasnt with Him. Heh. I said, urr, cause he isnt around. Thats all. Heh, that question kinda suck.
And then, sat with the gfs and their bfs when this particular guy was asking fr my contact. Heh. Afra was trying to ask her bf's friend to get to know me. I was like laughing as if i was happy but for a fact i dont even know why i am laughing. Hurh.
Overall, what im trying to say is, i cant seem to move on to any new ones. BECAUSE I JUST CANT. Dont ask, cause i find it sucha chore to get to know a complete stranger once again and then get happy with their existance and then having to lose them suddenly. Its like a complete waste of time when i have to get myself comfortable with a new kinda person with weird character compare to the past boys that ive met. Urgh. And its kinda hard cause ive been rejecting a few when god is trying to help me to move on but i insist on staying. Gahhhh! I hate myself for that. And ive to feel guilty when i got to say No.!
ENOUGH!
Afra and me have a new hobby of taking cab whenever we're at bukit batok to go home. Lol.
And she has this hobby of being friendly to the driver, that i dont mind laa.
But she was so hilarious just now that i almost laughed alone! lol.
Afra: (Talking about guys name starting with A)
Me: Dah la aku nak matair yg namer start with X
Afra: HAHAHAHAA, XIA XUE! HAHAHAA
Me: Takla Xhariff okay per..
US: HAHAHA.
Afra: Aku nak uh ade namer anak start with X, cool per!
Me: Okay uh. lol.
Afra: XXX!
Me: X Ray, Xtra!
US: HAHAHAAHA!
okay lame! Lol.
Then she said
Afra: Uncle, later you just go the round about then i can drop there.
Me: Afra kau imagine eh kalau uncle nie buat kiter pusing 10 kali kat round about nie!
US: AHAHAHAHAHHAHAHHA!
We were so high in laughing. Kekek!
Okay tmr means home and study okayy!
K bye! I wanna sleeep!