Im back (:

Its been a while since i las updated. Been pretty busy you see. Hurhur. Well just a small recap.

Thursday;

Ive been so hopin to get home early when i had to do full shift! Urgh. And that keeps me busy for the entire day.

Friday;

There werent enough staffs and i had to do 12 hours shift. Gahhh.

And these two days made me skip fasting. Hahaha, what do you expect. The hot hot weather plus long hours is definitely=SUBWAY drinks and cookies. Hahaha.

Saturday;

Saturday was cool. After work, us four took a cab to west coast park. It was our collegue's birthday pit. It was suckie to even know that there werent any pit because of the management! We had to take other collegue's car here and there to find some other place and only started the pit up at about 1am when we were actually there by 11 la. We search for the place for so long okay! So next time dont even go ther to book a pit. Hurhur. How can the management not know that there isnt anymore pit sites there, instead at the other side which faces the stupid vew of containers. Cool per. Ate a little, was entertained by the drunk birthday boy. Hurhur. Ranjith(the boss) was crazy. I swear it was all hilarious! Them dancing in the middle of no where. And so we headed home at about 3am. He sent me home and then he wnt back home. And the cab was quite a bomb, it was err. close to $38. How can it not be, he stays at p.ris.

Everything is pretty much fine these days. Except that its slightly complicated. I hate to say this, but im scared im gonna disappoint someone, again. Hurhur.

What is Love?

What is Like?

What is infatuation?

I literally forget all the meaning of these words. Seriously. I still cant figure out why i cant seem to appreciate those who have been nice to me. Those who have been really patient and tolerant to my so called stuborn-ness to accept them.

I cant go on pretending that i do, when i dont. Its seems so wrong la. I just cant make myself love someone like how i used to because;

1. I've yet gotten over some people from the past

2. I cant seem to feel the love that they are pouring. Perhaps, a little.

3. Im just not comfortable.

4. I choose to go back to the past because i feel better with it.

5. Bottom line is, im not ready. (:

"It takes time for love to grow"- He said.

I know, but what if you really cant accept it? You wouldnt wanna be the one who's breaking the other party's heart. You wouldnt wanna be the spoiler for the entire thing. I just dont know how i should explain to him, to make him see the other side. I know we just started our bond, but really, i cant. I even told someone from the past, that i cant seem to start anew, right mr? (:

Sigh sigh! I am so unaprreciative; I know.

Anyways, good day ahead people! :D