Well its been awhile since i last updated. Ive got too many things to say. I dont know how to start, but i shall do so slowly.

In any case, you guys probably have read the previous post about my once again, dramatic dating life with Fik which somehow, died. Oh tell me about it. Not once, but twice. And i had enough of all bullshits that he give. I mean, maybe he got to think using his brains that at times he should treasure people who cares for him. I am so irritated that things always have to repeat when i thought he already realise his mistakes. Well, Qad, you stupidly believed in something that you shouldnt even bother about.

I was wondering how he felt when he pretends infront of me. I mean, do you like not even care about what she thinks. I feel her, well if you dont yeah. Im still a girl and know how it feels when someone you care just go ahead ignoring you while going to some other ones. Fuck. I hate the feeling of thinking things were actually perfectly alright when drama was actually in the other scene. And to make it worst, with my friend.

I do not blame her, ive been through it. Maybe like what his ex-gf, Syah said once before, "he's good at it, i dont blame you" See what i mean. I dont blame anyone except for himself. Like when he uses this line after he didnt contact me for few days

" Qad sombong seh. its been a while since we last met" (well that kinda text)

I was sombong? When you were happily happy playing around with my friend. Oh thank you, thank you so much.

And when i thought you really cared while i was sick, on the other hand saying lovey dovey shits to some other girl. (I swear if killing isnt a crime, i wana kill you at tha point of time!)

So yeah, that is what he did. I am not being mean to announce it in this blog. But hey dude, learn your lesson. I aint got a time to entertain third party, fling, bullshits from any guys. Let alone waiting for some worthless mofos, cause i have better things to do.

What you did while you asked me for forgiveness was certainly sweet for perhaps, some girls who could take sweet words. But to me, well its sweet, for a moment only, cause if i were to accept the apology, months down the road, things would be the same again.

So boy, thank you for everything. I might consider forgiving you some day when you realise that girls arent at all toy for any of you guys friggin needs. Get this in mind.

On the other hand, i was seriously busy for this whole weekend. Friday was the muzikarama. Met lotsa familiar faces, sat was kenduri. And just now was the night safari. It was fun. I shall upload picas when liza send la okay (:

Its been 3 days since i last met Hilmi. Hurhur :( Plus tmr, 4 days. Suckie la suckie! I miss him. But i remembered this convo with him last nite;

"Kite mcm kiute gitu kan together" Him

" Aar, macam couple budak2 gitu kan B?" Me

I swear that was random la! Hahahaha. Oh man i miss him, but nevermind, im enduring plus with the 2 weeks trip. Hurhur.

Im just a happy happy girl cause Muhamad Hilmi made me one. (:

Darling, im happy la and please dont change your own self, cause you're better and you are best with the way you are now! :D