Can you believe the fact im not sleeping?

Can you believe the fact i can't stop whining?

Can you believe that im blogging at 6 in the morning?

Huge sigh*

Alert: This post is gonna be very emotionally disturbing. If you all are not willing to read, then click the red x okay gfs? (:

Because im feeling tired but i can't sleep

Because i feel a lost but i can't figure why

Because i miss you too much

Because its just too much to take.

Muhammad Hilmi

If you could only understand what i feel

If you could give me a lil of your explaination

If you could know that you really have a remarkable space in this heart

If you realise that i really want us to be

If only you could make things between us better.

If only you never change

If only, if only and if only.

If only you can tell me whats in that mind of yours

Sigh!

No matter how budak2 you look like

No matter how irritating you can get

No matter how many times you wanna slap or punch me

No matter all that, i still love you.

ARGH. I fucking miss you asshole!

I can't help but to think about you and the world of yours. I just can't to be thinking about it. Cause you, you told me too many things that i just cant't seem to forget. Cause you, you made me believe in something that i never wanted to. Cause your words are just too good and its hurting me too much. Because you wanted us to be and you wanted a new chapter to start. Im tired of crying buckets since these past few nights. Im tired of thinking ways to make things okay. Im tired of tolerating and understanding that you being unable to be there for me. Im tired. These 2 weeks have been a really rough patch for me, i don't know if its for you. Im too tired to think but i just can't stop thinking, you get the drift?

dear darling
i love you so much. its e beginning of a new chapter for us. put e past behind and let us c wad e future has in store for us. der may b ups and downs along e way and i hope we can make it thru. so lets get ready for our new adventure darling. wakakaka. hey ho lets go.

Sigh! You said that, you did.

& this is worst then losing Wandie, Fik, Didi. The feeling of great lost just occur. It made me really restless and uncomfortable thinking about him all these days. To give up, i know many people would have done so if they were to be in y position, but something told me to hold on, to be patient. But again, would the outcome be the same? I dont know.

Unexpectedly, i cried alot for you, but i dont even know what is it for when you, you just happily live in the world of yours.

:'(

Insert my most sial and pathetic face here. Thats what and how i am right now. Eyebags and dark rings. I told myself not to shed any more tears, but hey, love is something you can never hold back, remember?

Okay, i shall have an hour sleep before having to wake up to go tampines for the thailand trip's jab.

Girlfriends, dont mind me whining. Help me through this please.