Hello (:

Today, since now is 1230 am, i shall say yesterday la. Uhm, 11th December 2007 marks a very breaking down day for me. But i pulled through and im very proud of that. Thanks for those advisors i had. People like

Afra

Mariana

Fira

Ex boyfriend; sehaimi

Yan

Ershad (:

Oh my thanks to you nice people that i pull the whole of today. If not, i might considering myself sobbing like a pathetic puppy, seriously.

So anws, after sobbing for a darn long 2 hours, i decided that i should take a good hot bath and head to work before it gets worst. & so i did, suprisingly i dress up as if i wanna go town for shopping or as if theres some event (!!!) But hey that really made me better ( Collegues said i dress up alot, today! ;) )

So headed to work and wa entertain by afra over the phone, thanks bestfriend! :D & So when i step into sentosa, i once again, felt ohsoshitty. But i made it through.

But whats worst than having to manage personal things and working and being the main person who has to take charge of sales. Im a human, i definitely cant despite how much i try not to let anything affect work. The greatest sale for as long of my time being in Digi Photo. A friggin $55 lame sale, overall(!!!!!!!!!) I was screaming at myself, complaining to the collegues on how useless i felt i was. Sigh. & While working, the ex boyfriend knows me well. He could see through me and he made me better. Lotsa advice given and thank god he was there. (: Im glad, despite us going through someting shitty a year ago, we could be as open and close like now. Thanks la giler, if you're reading this, oh hello! (: You have the sweetest gf cause she doesnt mind talking and huggin me as your ex girlfriend. Get me? some girls could get paranoid. Nyahha!

So after feeling bump for the stupid sales, headed home with the attraction people. Yan and Ershad did a lot to make my day a better one All the teka teki. Okay example;

Ershad: Teka Teki leh jumpe kat negeri mane?

Yan: TURKEY!! Hahahhaah!

Lame kan! But still i enjoyed with them. Headed home later cause we lepak. Hahah, but its okay lah, im still alive and home now.

Talked to yan about lotsa things, i salute him for being that mature when i thought he's childish. Heheheh. Alot of topics that we came about. Hah. Thanks mister, i think your words made a great impact for me.

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Sidetrack

Sometimes, when you found the person who really cares for you, its really a beautiful thing, dont you think so? & when you have found one of those special human on earth, believe me losing them would be sucha great impact to you.

Sometimes, creating happiness and seeing the carve on someones face to show that they are happy makes you feel wonderful, dont you think so? & you could just do a little mistake to upset them that they will remember you entirely.

Sometimes, loving someone is so difficult, when all you get in return is some, disappointing treatment. Am i not right to say so? Sometimes, things come when you least expect it, or when its infront of you. Unfortunately for me, things have been coming so often that i could realise but still refuse to take note of it all. To keep holding to it, to keep saying its okay, to be made like someone you didnt expect you could be.

All it take is a little thing called patience cause patience is virtue, thats what people will say. Sometimes when you feel that your life is so terible that you would wanna die anytime, the best thing to do is to cry all your lungs out and that will make you feel that you are prepared to move to a stage cause afterall, whats ife without problem. You feel me?

Whats love, without sacrificing for the ones you're with, cause certainly you will feel much happier seeing them happy. Now, go figure what i mean.

Its weird to see myself as patient as this, as tolerant as this, as ignorant and as forgiving as this. God must have mde my patience rate super high till, till all these could be accepted in my dictionary but not some others. But again, i believe that one shouldnt regret but o accept and learn. And to believe that things could always be better although it gets worst at times.

I shall end this very long post. Mayb people should start treasuring people around them, so lesser people will get hurt. Maybe people should learn to think using their brains and not using their other parts and only to regret at the end of the day. Well, think again (:

Im not a muthafuckin sweettalker, you said, but hey, look.