What hurts the most?

The worst thing a girl could ask for is her heart to be broken umpteen times. To be treated like she means nothing at all by a guy, she really love once. To be cheated on from time to time and to have thought that she was the entire mistake for everything.

What exactly went wrong, she got clueless herself. The girl who thought he would bring wonders to her life. The girl who just wanted something pleasant to add up to her spicy life. The special feeling that makes her go so high up through the thin air that she never ever thought it would end up this way. The girl who got to find out by herself after months that afterall, it wasnt her fault that it went wrong but the fault of a certain person who refuse to admit that he is the jerk who screwed up every single thing that was created.

If you forgot;

Im the girl who would smile with you

Im the girl who would laugh with you

Im the girl who would share your sadness and tears

Im the girl who would go through thick and thins with you

Im the girl who will take care of you when you're sick

That girl who never fail to remind you to have your meals

That girl who loves to be pampered by you

That girl who would listen to your lame jokes

To listen to your complains

To listen to your funny stories

To be your gossip partner

To be crying buckets for you

To be able to keep our secrets and laugh in between while no one knows

That girl, who would hug you after us quarrelling because the fact that losing you is the greatest fear.

And...

Im the frigging girl you once chose to win and go all out because for a fact you know im far off better to be compared to her and im the girl who isnt at all any carbon copy of her, your damn past.

And im the girl who thought that the entire blame was to be put on me because you said so, indirectly!

Yes, im that girl.

I couldnt understand about ex's trying to mess up the currents' life. To intrude life of someone they thought they chose not to stay with, back then. I do not understand the fact that people are confused about what they want for the better and i dont even know why breaking up is a need when all you wanna do is this 3 steps;

1st

Breaking up,

2nd

Moving on to a new girl/guy

3rd

To dump her and get back again to the past only to realise you want her/him

What the hell is the motive this which is so gonna hurt people's heart. I dont and can never understand this at all. Yes, something called love, bullshit.

Thank you girls for all these. You all know i deserve this, i deserve to know and not to live in something that hasnt been true at all. Something that i blame myself all along. All this while, its all been cheating of feelings. Im sorry to have shock you girls at work crying like, bad.

Hidayah

Thanks for being there at work trying to make me smile and thanks for giving me the courage when i almost fell and never wanna pick myself up at all.

Have you asked yourself this;

Do you even know what you're doing.

Do you even care for the person

Do you even know she loves you so much

Do you even bother

Search your heart. If you were to come across this, prolly you should think again. I may not be the perfect one that could have you and not the one who deserve you, definitely well thats because i dont deserve any cheaters who cheats others feelings without even using their god damn brain.