"To follow your heart"

I had a good chat with imah earlier this evening. We were talking about matters of heart. I think she and Khairi is funny. Well, to think of it, i think its khairi la.

Me- "Imah, how's your valentine gonna be?"

Imah- "Ntah uh, khairi kental uhh, die tak celebrate valentine"

Me- "Hahahah! Kental la matair kau!"

Imah- " Tu pasal uh, die cakap nie sume kafir, yahudi!"

I feel like smacking him hard when he said the word Yahudi! Stop with that word okay. Wahahahah. Its so funny on how imah could be really happy and yeah who says that you need kazillion years to move on to get to other guy when she only did like 5 months or so to move on from Amir Fahmi. Heh. Good for you babe. Always the lucky one. Tsk. I sounded so deprived while we were chatting. Hehehehhe. But, its okay. I dont mind going through this again.

She told me that, i should follow my heart and what its got to feel. And i shouldnt cheat and lie to myself when i clearly know what i feel, she said something like that. Ahah. If i could only know what my heart wants, it'll be a great thing imah! But im even lost at myself. Its just difficult you see. I said:

"Maybe its not my happy time yet"

She said smth like: "Not about time, its you who chose not to get out of your comfort zone"

And i think its quite true. I mean, i just dont find a need to keep on trying to move out of the comfort zone only to find things hanging once again. And to make it worse, its always a cycle. When i wanna try to move and start anew, shits again happened. And believe it or not, its always about the same third party shits. But its okay, if he's mine, he's mine. Thats what i believe actually.

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School was okay. I swear its a waste of time cause most class were cancelled. -.-" But still i headed home at about 3 i think. & the tiredness of the 3 full shifts of working is still here.

Tmr's marketing test. & so i got to do abit of revision, NOT. Im just lazy. Tsk.