Its almost 3am and i cant sleep. I dont know why, but my eyes cant seem to shut. And my hand itchy itchy go read the old posts of my blog and bfs'. Some just made me laugh super much, some made me feel really sad, some made me happy. Hahaha, its an unexplainable feeling. Mixture of everything.
I know, the past got to go, but somethings are meant to be kept (:
Like how hard it was for me to manage shits that happen all at one go. I didnt know i went through lotsa shits with all those people from the past, well besides fik too. Haha, its funny on how i could shed buckets for all these people, i dont even know whther they do that for me, (shouts not*) Hehehe. But i know fik does.
Like my love life with him, wah piang i read until i wanna laugh and cry at the same time, its friggin scary plus, thrilling. Okay slap me for this, lol. Oh well, shits happen and our relationship has been through alot. Honestly, it upsets me when i read about all that but at the same time, i feel relieved that at last something is already back on its track. Like how me and fik are now. I didnt see this coming after much hurdles and all. All the hatred i had, the unforgiving moments, all those things we've said to each other which hurt alot. Heh, unbelievable.
I cant imagine myself not going through all these. Not that i say i wanna go through shits, duh, definitely not! But i think all these made me strong. Im the strongest girl alive. (Like what feka said, lol!)
I dont know how its like if i didnt give fik a chance again. I dont know how it would be without him now, heh. Through all these, i made friends, hated ones (prolly) and loved ones. Heh.
Blogging is a good thing, it keeps reminding you about your past and the past is the thing that keeps you hanging strong, dont you think so? (:
Fik's asleep but i text him something that i found from past post, super funny, but then again, he's asleeep and i miss him. Yes, we've been super busy. I think i got to stop him from getting any new commitments, lol.
Love you muchos la idiotlove!
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1. Happy birthday imah.
2. Digi after work night, yayyy! :D so gonna meet them all!